Keep trying.

“Love is like a wind-up clock. Once you wind it up, it starts working perfectly and tells time correctly. But as time goes on and if you don’t keep winding the clock, it will stop working. Just like love. You always have to keep winding for it to work. Because once you forget or give up, it won’t work anymore.”

Everyone and their moms seem to be in relationships these days. Well to everyone starting fresh or continuing on what they had, keep trying, don’t give up. Accept the other person for who they are and really try to understand them. Listen to your head while balancing your heart at the same time. 
It’s not just you anymore… you have another person’s feelings and being you’re going to have to account for.
Most importantly, just remember to have fun and laugh more than you cry or fight with the person you supposedly have feelings for. 
People seem to forget what a relationship entails. Get jealous. Get mad at each other, but learn from each other and grow with one another instead of making each other miserable.
Learn when to let go and remember when to hold on.

I can’t put this on facebook.. but omg. This video is my life. Like literally.

The dude takes you out on this amazing date and everything is going amazing and you’re just about to start anew. And you think this time… this time is gonna be different. This guy is gonna treat me right. And he’s attentative and loving in the beginning and he’s so good at making you feel so special and wanted. His attention is so nice. But then… for some reason you begin to notice that it doesn’t seem like he cares about you… Like the second you fall for it, he steps back. And then you’re still trying to get that first spark back like that first kiss and that first date…

But then you’re at a crazy party and he kisses someone else that isn’t you. And you’re no longer special. You’re just another girl to him. Another girl that he can kiss and all of a sudden, everything that you felt that was real and that felt so right and so nice is all just a lie. Everything he did for you was just a lie. He never cared. He never liked you as much as you liked him. Shame on you. The joke is on you. You were just another easy girl. And your feelings don’t matter…

It’s literally one of the worst feelings in the world. Three times in a row for me now. 
I wonder how long it’s going to take for me to stop feeling that shitty feeling… haha.  

Gonna be Honest.

I do miss the beginning.
I miss when we used to talk on the phone till the sun came up.
I miss when I mattered.
I miss that hope that maybe something good would come out of us being together.
I miss how we both said we would just go on a “leap of faith” and just trust each other.
I miss how we said “Sometimes bad things happen, so better things come along.”
I guess it was all one sided and my little innocence tricked me into thinking that maybe I’d be able to meet the right person.

But that’s all gone now. Because it just seems like it was all a lie now even though it seemed so true in the beginning…
Like paramore says:

“It’s a circle, I mean cycle.
I can’t excite you anymore”

It’ll just keep happening with you. But I really want something that’s meaningful. And it’s not meaningful with you… There’s nothing for me right now. But I’m patiently waiting… Cos I know that in the end, it’ll be entirely worth it with whoever I end up with… At least, this is my bit of hope that it will be worth it… It’s what keeps me going.